My Biological Clock is Ticking….

*Warning: This post contains a lot of rambling thoughts….*

Lately, I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure concerning where I’m at in life and where I feel (or where society feels, or where my family feels, or where my friends feel, etc.) I should be at in life. In some ways it feels like there are two choices I can make at this stage (almost like in the actual game of Life….you know, the Milton Bradley one?). You can either take the “Family” path or the “Career” path. Obviously I know that in real life it is definitely possible to have both, but in my little overthinking brain it feels like I have to choose between one or the other.

Should I wait to get married until my career takes off, or more realistically, until I find out what I want my career path to be? But then again, I really would like to get married to my boyfriend sooner rather than later, so maybe we should just get married and wait for a while to have kids…. But then there’s that voice in the back of my mind telling me that the earlier I have kids, the more energy I’ll have to deal with them, and I would love for my grandparents to be able to see as much of their lives as possible. So then I start doing the math in my head to decide the maximum age I should wait to have kids so that my boyfriend and I can have some alone married life time together but also so that my grandparents will also be able to enjoy them.

Wouldn’t you just love to be stuck in my head?

So, as you can probably tell, I’m a bit of an over thinker. I would much rather have my life all planned out and tied with a bow than to just sit back and let things happen. However, unfortunately, that’s not how life is, and despite my best efforts to set a 10 year plan for my life it almost never happens that way. So, lately I’ve been having to learn this lesson the hard way. Luckily, my boyfriend happens to be the complete opposite and settles me down when I start planning out our retirement home.

The truth is that a lot of the times we don’t have control over life like we think we do. Although it might be nice to have kids at a certain age or get married in your early twenties like the Buzzfeed article says, that’s not always something we should rush into or feel like the world is crashing in around us if it doesn’t end up that way. After all, for every “5 Reasons Getting Married Early is the Best” article there’s also a “10 Reasons Why You Should Wait to Get Married” article right behind it.

* I hope this made a bit of sense and encouraged someone who may be dealing with the same things I am! Don’t forget to comment and follow my blog! I’d love to hear from you!! 🙂

The Waiting Room of Life

2017 was such an exciting year for me. It was the year that I decided to start focusing on my dreams and what I wanted out of life rather than what other people wanted for me. I hopped on my first plane EVER and travelled to three different continents. My boyfriend and I started thinking very seriously about our future together and the life we want with each other. I started a Instagram and YouTube for A Hint of Spring. I finished student teaching, and I started my last year of college. I went bungee jumping for crying out loud!

It was exciting and scary and adventurous and amazing and terrifying and wonderful.

And then 2018 hit, and I was confident that I would be on the same adventurous path I started….only it didn’t happen in January. Instead of starting life with my boyfriend I’m still thousands of miles away from him. Instead of inspiring high schoolers, I’m back sitting in a lecture hall. Instead of following my dreams, I’m trying my best to pass my last few classes until I graduate.

It’s been a really strange time for me, and although it may seem like I’m complaining and my life sucks, I’m really not upset. It just feels….strange. It feels like my life was running at full speed, and now it’s just stalled, and I’ve found myself “playing the waiting game” until graduation day where major life changes will begin again.

I’ve never really been a fan of waiting. I would much rather just do what I need to do and be done with it. It seems like a waste of time, so I’ve been trying to find ways to make the waiting seem more meaningful. I’ve tried new hobbies. I’ve watched new shows. I’ve tried to find new inspiration, but nothing seems to make me feel any better about waiting for the next big moment in my life.

However, the more I’ve wished that the next big moment would arrive quicker, the more I’ve realized that I’m wishing my life away. Even though this waiting period in my life is still hard and somewhat annoying, it’s a part of life, and maybe it’s there to make the other moment sweeter.

4 Reasons Why Your 20s Aren’t What You Expect

*My intentions in this post are not simply to be negative and rant-y as they may appear. Instead, I would like to use this post to show other people who may be going through the same things I am that they are not alone. That other people feel the same way even if they may not think so. I am also in no way saying that EVERYONE feels this way, so if your 20s happen to be glorious and exactly as you expected, I’m incredibly happy for you and somewhat envious of you…. SO here we go.*

When I was in high school, I had so many ideas about what my life would look like in my 20s. At the time, being in my 20s seemed so far away and out of reach. It seemed like the golden years full of freedom, adventures, relationships, and babies. In some ways, it has been that way. I’ve traveled to places I never even dreamed I would. I have an amazing boyfriend who I’m looking forward to spending a long and happy life with.

However, in a lot of ways, it has been completely different, and here’s why….

  1. Your life is no longer mapped out. Up until college, my life was incredibly mapped out. From the moment I signed up for my first advanced class in elementary school, I knew that I would go from elementary to middle school, middle school to high school, and high school to college. Even the college I went to was largely planned out. My biggest decision at the time was whether or not I should quit band and who to go to prom with. Once I got to my Freshman year I was fully convinced that the next few years would be similarly mapped out. I would find a major I was passionate about, meet the love of my life, get married right after graduation, and spend the rest of my life raising kids. Only….it didn’t happen that way. The perfect major didn’t pop out at me. The love of my life didn’t walk up with a sign saying “I’m the One.” Which leads me to my next point. doors-1767562_1920
  2. Your 20s are full of (what seems like) high stakes decisions. I was finding myself (and still find myself) faced with the seemingly huge decision of what I want to do with the rest of my life, where I want to live after, do I go for my passions or the practical job? When should I get married? SHOULD I get married? Do I even WANT kids? So many questions that seem to shape how your life will look when you hit the next decade of your life. young-791849_1920
  3. You spend much of your time alone. It seems like you’re never alone in high school. You live with your family, you have all of your friends in school with you that you grew up with, and you spend your after school hours around friends or participating in extracurricular activities. In your 20s, though, it seems like you spend much more of your time alone. You live alone for the first time. You live with people you don’t know which can be quite lonely until you get used to them. You study alone. You walk into a classroom of 300 people not knowing a single person. It can be very lonely which goes along with my next point. pinky-swear-329329_1920.jpg
  4. You don’t always have your best buddies around (or any buddies). Usually in high school you think that the friends you have then will be your friends for the rest of your life. BFFs 4ever, right? Unfortunately, for one reason or another that’s not always the case. As you get older, your paths diverge and before you know it you’re texting each other on holidays lamenting about how long it’s been since you’ve seen each other and how you HAVE to get together soon. You make new friends who’s interests and direction lines up closer to yours, and you may even meet a significant other who you spend most of your free time with.

So no, your 20s are not what you expect, but that does not mean that they are all bad, so enjoy your 20s and know that you are not alone in what you are feeling.

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Black Friday Haul!

So…. as I do every year, I went Black Friday shopping with my family right after Thanksgiving dinner. My family always likes to go during the night instead of waking up early to go because….we hate waking up! Unlike other people, we don’t really go to find great deals (although it’s always nice when we find one). Instead, we just use it as a time to spend time with family, get a jump start on Christmas shopping, and have fun.

SO, here is some of what we got.

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Before we went to the mall, we stopped by Target because they usually have some really great stocking stuffers in the dollar section at the front of the store and movies for great deals. At the dollar section, I found some really cute silver and white Christmas trees for a dollar to put on my desk in my room. I also found some inspirational posters and a clipboard to use in my future classroom because I think that it’s really important to fill classrooms with inspiration to follow their dreams.

After we moved on from the dollar section (or rather my family forcibly removed me from the dollar section….) I found a pretty awesome passport holder that I’m planning to take to India with me very soon. I also got a 2018 planner which I love because it’s so big. I feel like it’ll be really great to put on my desk to plan out the year. It also has a lot of room to write to-do lists for each day which I use to destress.

And, of course, for me it wouldn’t be black friday if I didn’t get a few Christmas movies and books. This year they had Christmas classics for only $4 each, so I got some of my favorites that we watch as a family every year. I also got The Lion King to add to my Disney collection (I’m trying to collect all the Disney movies and for some reason I didn’t have The Lion King yet which is crazy because it’s one of my favorites! The last movie I got was The Big Sick which is an incredibly awesome and funny love story. It reminds me of what me and my boyfriend went through when we first started dating, so when I saw it, I had to get it.

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Next up was Old Navy, which was probably the craziest place we went the entire night since they had such great deals. I got two incredibly comfy sweaters which I absolutely LOVE and some pajama pants with little foxes on them 🙂 They’re adorable!

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The last two places we went were Lush and Sephora. (I didn’t take any pictures of what I got from Lush because I already broke the bubble bar filming the video and didn’t want to do anymore damage lol) At Sephora, I picked up a First Aid Beauty moisturizer which I got for a really great deal! I also got a Hoola Lite Bronzer which I’ve been wanting for a really long time since I think it will go really great with my skin tone. Last but not least, I got the Urban Decay Naked Skin Foundation which I’ve also been wanting for a really long time since it’s supposed to be a high coverage foundation that actually matches my pale skin.

Anyway, that’s everything I got during my Black Friday shopping trip! I hope everybody had a great and safe Thanksgiving!

Cute and Simple Fall Decorations on a Budget

As you may or may not know….I absolutely love fall!! The hoodies, the cool winds, the pumpkin and apple scents….I just love it all! In honor of the first day of fall coming up, I went over to Walmart (your destination for everything) and picked up a couple of things to decorate my room. Since they were from Walmart, they were also all under $4 each! Here’s what I got!

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When I saw these kitchen towels, I absolutely had to have them! They’re so cute! First of all, I absolutely love owls (which probably contributes to my love of fall). My room is pretty much fully decorated with everything owl related. I also couldn’t resist the fox “Happy Harvest” one since it’s just so adorable. IMG_6932

Next, I picked up some actual decorations for my room. The first one is a mini pumpkin that I thought would look really cute on my nightstand next to my fall Bath & Body Works candle. How can you not have a mini pumpkin for the fall? Last, I picked up five strands of leaves to put on the fairy lights hanging around my room. If you’ve ever seen my videos, they’re the ones right above my bed where I film. I thought that they would make my room and videos look a lot more festive.

Happy fall everyone!!