Black Friday Haul!

So…. as I do every year, I went Black Friday shopping with my family right after Thanksgiving dinner. My family always likes to go during the night instead of waking up early to go because….we hate waking up! Unlike other people, we don’t really go to find great deals (although it’s always nice when we find one). Instead, we just use it as a time to spend time with family, get a jump start on Christmas shopping, and have fun.

SO, here is some of what we got.

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Before we went to the mall, we stopped by Target because they usually have some really great stocking stuffers in the dollar section at the front of the store and movies for great deals. At the dollar section, I found some really cute silver and white Christmas trees for a dollar to put on my desk in my room. I also found some inspirational posters and a clipboard to use in my future classroom because I think that it’s really important to fill classrooms with inspiration to follow their dreams.

After we moved on from the dollar section (or rather my family forcibly removed me from the dollar section….) I found a pretty awesome passport holder that I’m planning to take to India with me very soon. I also got a 2018 planner which I love because it’s so big. I feel like it’ll be really great to put on my desk to plan out the year. It also has a lot of room to write to-do lists for each day which I use to destress.

And, of course, for me it wouldn’t be black friday if I didn’t get a few Christmas movies and books. This year they had Christmas classics for only $4 each, so I got some of my favorites that we watch as a family every year. I also got The Lion Kingย to add to my Disney collection (I’m trying to collect all the Disney movies and for some reason I didn’t have The Lion King yet which is crazy because it’s one of my favorites! The last movie I got was The Big Sick which is an incredibly awesome and funny love story. It reminds me of what me and my boyfriend went through when we first started dating, so when I saw it, I had to get it.

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Next up was Old Navy, which was probably the craziest place we went the entire night since they had such great deals. I got two incredibly comfy sweaters which I absolutely LOVE and some pajama pants with little foxes on them ๐Ÿ™‚ They’re adorable!

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The last two places we went were Lush and Sephora. (I didn’t take any pictures of what I got from Lush because I already broke the bubble bar filming the video and didn’t want to do anymore damage lol) At Sephora, I picked up a First Aid Beauty moisturizer which I got for a really great deal! I also got a Hoola Lite Bronzer which I’ve been wanting for a really long time since I think it will go really great with my skin tone. Last but not least, I got the Urban Decay Naked Skin Foundation which I’ve also been wanting for a really long time since it’s supposed to be a high coverage foundation that actually matches my pale skin.

Anyway, that’s everything I got during my Black Friday shopping trip! I hope everybody had a great and safe Thanksgiving!

Cute and Simple Fall Decorations on a Budget

As you may or may not know….I absolutely love fall!! The hoodies, the cool winds, the pumpkin and apple scents….I just love it all! In honor of the first day of fall coming up, I went over to Walmart (your destination for everything) and picked up a couple of things to decorate my room. Since they were from Walmart, they were also all under $4 each! Here’s what I got!

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When I saw these kitchen towels, I absolutely had to have them! They’re so cute! First of all, I absolutely love owls (which probably contributes to my love of fall). My room is pretty much fully decorated with everything owl related. I also couldn’t resist the fox “Happy Harvest” one since it’s just so adorable.ย IMG_6932

Next, I picked up some actual decorations for my room. The first one is a mini pumpkin that I thought would look really cute on my nightstand next to my fall Bath & Body Works candle. How can you not have a mini pumpkin for the fall? Last, I picked up five strands of leaves to put on the fairy lights hanging around my room. If you’ve ever seen my videos, they’re the ones right above my bed where I film. I thought that they would make my room and videos look a lot more festive.

Happy fall everyone!!

 

25 Things about Me!

This is going to be kind of a short blog post. I just wanted to take some time to tell you a little about who I am and what I love! Let me know in the comments section some things about you!

  1. I absolutely love cold animals (penguins, killer whales, seals, etc)
  2. I did gymnastics for 11 years
  3. My favorite color is teal and turquoise
  4. I wanted to work for Sea World when I was little
  5. I was obsessed with Steve Irwin when I was little
  6. One Direction is the first and only boyband Iโ€™ve ever liked (Sorry Backstreet Boys :/ )
  7. I am a science education major with an emphasis in biology
  8. I have wanted to start a YouTube channel for about three years now
  9. My favorite makeup brand is Too Faced
  10. The first YouTuber I ever watched was Zoella
  11. The boyfriend I have now is my first ever boyfriend
  12. We have been dating for almost two years
  13. Iโ€™m definitely an introvert which means I get energy from being alone
  14. I am an only child
  15. I have seven first cousins who are like my siblings
  16. My favorite tv shows are How I Met Your Mother, Parks and Rec, Once Upon a Time, and Pretty Little Liars
  17. I love romantic comedies, but they have to be really funny
  18. It takes a lot to make me really laugh
  19. I am 22 years old
  20. I am a fifth year senior in college
  21. My favorite author is C.S. Lewis
  22. I adore fruit
  23. Peaches are my absolute favorite
  24. I started doing my makeup about halfway through my sophomore year of college
  25. I am obsessed with coffee. If I donโ€™t have it in the mornings Iโ€™m literally like a zombie

The Little Things I Love: Summer Edition

Sometimes I think that it’s the little things in life that make life so amazing. Those moments when you can just sit and enjoy life for a few moments or hours. Everyone has different things that they make them feel this way. For some people, it’s being around large crowds or being in the middle of a hyped concert. For the summer, though, these are the things that make me feel this way.

  1. Sitting in the Front Porch Swing.ย There is just something about swinging on the front porch on a warm (not burning hot, warm) summer day and listening to the sounds of birds and other animals around you that is just so comforting.ย IMG_6565.JPG
  2. Feeling a Light Breeze on a Warm Day.ย There is nothing so refreshing as a soft, light breeze when you’re just starting to get a little too hot.ย IMG_6564
  3. Hugging Your Family After Being Away for a While.ย The moment I got to hug my family after being away from them for the entire month of June was just so amazing. Seeing the happiness on their faces from me being back was so comforting and….I just don’t have words for it.
  4. Taking a Walk by Yourself in Nature.ย I live next to a family lake and walking on a warm day down by the lake with no one else but you and the occasional animal is an absolutely amazing experience.
  5. The First Feeling of the Ocean.ย Each year my family goes to the beach, and feeling the ocean on your feet and the saltiness of the air around you for the first time that year is just a magical experience.ย IMG_5037.JPG
  6. Getting Excited about a New Hobby. This summer I put my fears aside for a moment and started a YouTube channel and got back to writing regularly on my blog. There’s something incredibly exciting about the anticipation of starting a new channel or blog and the hope and pride you have for what it’s going to turn into.
  7. Having Your Dog Come Sit Beside You While You’re Working.ย There’s something that makes you feel important when your dog decides to stop chasing after lizards and squirrels and just lay down next to you and enjoy the day.ย IMG_6562.JPG
  8. Listening to a Song that Perfectly Describes What You’re Going Through.ย I absolutely love connecting a song to a specific place and time in my life. It’s never intentional, but whenever that song plays a few months/years later, I always go back to that specific moment in time.
  9. Fairy Lights All Around You.ย To me, fairy lights just make everything look more beautiful and magical at night.ย IMG_6136.JPG

So those are some of the little things that make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside this summer. Let me know in the comments what’s been making you feel the same way!!

Counselors and Makeup

When I first started going to counseling for depression, I looked at it the same way I looked at makeup when I was 10. I had pale skin, freckles, unruly not curly yet not close to being straight hair, and glasses. Makeup sounded like my cure. Makeup commercials promised me that if I just could put on a little bit of foundation I would be beautiful. Concealer would cover up my freckles and make me happy.

Then came the moment my mom actually let me try makeup for the first time. It was a girls sleepover and my mom’s friend the makeup artist promised to give us a makeover. I was beyond ecstatic. I not so patiently waited my turn for beauty, and then the time came. I sat in the chair feeling the soft brush strokes over my face and my many insecurities melting away. When she was done, I emerged from the chair feeling better than ever before. I practically ran to the mirror and looked expectantly and full of hope in the mirror just to have it crashing down around me.

What awaited me in the mirror was the opposite of what I had expected. My freckles were still there staring back at me, if just a little subdued. My face was still just as pale as ever and not in the least bit model like. I just couldn’t understand it. Why didn’t I look as good as the makeup commercials had promised? I honestly felt completely defeated and hopeless.

Now, looking back I feel absolutely silly thinking that makeup would make me look like a completely different person, but at the time, I truly thought that would make my life completely different. I was so devastated that I never even tried makeup again until prom. I didn’t see the point. The problem was that I was looking to makeup to solve a much bigger problem, my poor self image.

The same was true for counseling. I went into counseling thinking that my counselor would be my savior. She would fix me, and all I would have to do is let her….like my makeup, that wasn’t what happened. I quickly realized that to truly help my depression, I would have to confront parts of my past I didn’t want to ever look at again. Despite how hard I tried to forget them, they just won’t go away. They’ve become a part of me without me realizing it. They dictate where I go, what I say, who I choose to talk to, and how I live my life, and until I face them and deal with them once and for all they’ll always be there affecting me in ways I never even thought about.

The problem is that the thought of facing those past hurts again terrifies me.